six month update LOL

somehow it feels like a lot has happened since my last post and at the same time nothing has happened. okay that's a lie a lot has happened. this is usually the time i go "right time for a fresh start!" but unfortunately I find myself kinda afraid to venture into new beginnings, and I guess putting everything I'm feeling into a longform word vomit is my way of facing everything and figuring it out away from the mess in my head.

( everything that's happened since may and what I plan to do next )

maybe I'll regret this in the morning